Well Looky There...

Not long ago...I wrote a post called "What to Expect When you are NOT Expecting." It talked about the challenges and heartaches of trying to get pregnant. It is nothing other than a battle. Right after I wrote that post I had a come to Jesus...with Jesus...literally. I decided that I was done living my life 2 weeks at a time. It wasn't fair to my husband, the daughter I DO have, or myself. I let go. I began the Advocare 24 day challenge and was setting my mind to becoming healthier and more fit. I did not take any ovulation tests and was not neurotic around ovulation time. I can truly say with all honesty, I let God take the burden from me. Well..........4 short weeks later....

Well looky there...

GOD. ROCKS. 

After 4 terrifying, white knuckle weeks of blood tests and monitoring my high risk pregnancy...

I got to see my baby and hear it's precious heart beat. IT WAS THE SOUND OF VICTORY! Unfortunately Josh couldn't be there because he cannot take any time off while in the academy but I had my mom right by my side...eyes full of tears...sharing this beautiful moment. 

I want to say thank you to EVERY SINGLE PERSON who said even one prayer for us. I am a steadfast believer that there is nothing stronger than the power of prayer and we had so many people behind us. I feel like this is a victory for so many more people than just Josh and me. So to anyone who prayed for my family...I thank you from the very bottom of my heart. Please continue to pray for a healthy pregnancy...this battle is not over yet. 

SO....now I finally get to do what I have been planning on doing since I found out I was pregnant the first time in January of this year. I ran out and bought what I needed to make myself a chalkboard and picked out the template I wanted to use to document my pregnancy. Well, the chalkboard ended up being used for Lilly's scripture every morning...and unfortunately a few people I know have been blessed with pregnancies and they have used the questions I had planned on using but OH WELL! I'm not going to let that stop me from my original plan. I will use my blog to document the progress of my pregnancy...for y'all... and for me to look back on. I AM SO EXCITED! 

How far along? 10 Weeks

Baby is the size of a: prune

Total weight gain: ZERO

Maternity clothes? nope

Stretch marks? absolutely not

Sleep: Between the weird dreams and getting up to pee every 2 hours...not great

Best moment this week: Having Lilly see her new sibling on the sono. She had no idea!

Movement: no...even though Lilly checks every day ;)

Have you told your family and friends? Yes! We told them this week at our Christmas party!

Miss anything? Margaritas

Food cravings: Chicken pot pies...I know...weird

Anything making you queasy or sick? Coffee. Even the smell of it makes me gag :( saddest thing ever

Gender: 100% sure it's a boy

Labor signs: nope

Symptoms: so incredibly tired....alllll the time

Belly button in or out? in 

Wedding rings on or off? on :)

Happy or moody most of the time? honestly? moody. EVERYTHING annoys me. My poor husband and co-workers

Looking forward to? The morning sickness and CONSTANT nausea to go away

I hope yall enjoy going through our journey with us. I feel like so many of you are already a part of this journey...so the more the merrier!! 

Until 11 weeks...

Kay

29 Years Young 

 

 My brother turned 29 on Wednesday. I had every intention on posting this on his ACTUAL birthday...but 12-12-12 was not kind to the lady. So here I am, two days late, dedicating this post to my amazing big brother, Kyle. Here's what I'm gonna do. I'm going to list 29 of my favorite things about Kyle (get it...because he turned 29) I know I know...I'm SO clever. So here they are. 

1. His amazing laugh
2. His mad dance moves

3. The way he loves my mom 
4. That even when I'm infuriated with him...he still makes me laugh
5. That no matter how old we get or how far apart we live...he is my best friend. 

 
6. His love for adventure
7. His love for his puppy/son, Banjo
8. His sense of humor
9. How stubborn he is (which I also hate I will add) 
10. How protective he was of me growing up.
11.  How protective he is of me as an adult 
12. His"I love you sister"texts
13. How he is with his little old ladies. They absolutely adore him! 
14. His big smile. It's contagious I swear

 

{See}

  

15. How he says Lilly "reree"
16. How truly excited he gets when he sees his family
17. The kind of husband and daddy he will be
18. All of the wisdom he has shared with me over the years
19. The way he bends over backward to accommodate everyone
20. His loyalty to his sports teams. Don't even talk to him if you are now a Thunder fan and used to root for the Mavs
21. His love of God
22. His idea of his perfect woman (and I still have the PERFECT one for him :) 
23. How we talk to each other like we are "special" judge us if you'd like 

24. How it is nearly impossible to get a picture with his eyes actually OPEN

 

 {He has to try soooo hard}

 
25. His bravery to follow his dreams
26.  The Tabor cheeeese that he so kindly handed down to me

 

{Exhibit 1 &2}

 

 27. The fact the he has been the best man in several weddings...it says so much about the kind of man and friend he is
28. The fact that he walked me down the isle ♥
29. that he challenges me...all the time 

And one for good measure...

 
30. The simple fact that he is MY big brother. I am forever blessed. 

 

 I could lie and tell you that it was difficult for me to come up with a list of  29 things...but it would be exactly that...a lie. If he was turning 100...piece of cake. 

I love you to the moon Bubby. Happy Birthday and I can't wait to see you!

Trusting In My Tomorrows

When I starting dating Josh, I wasn't in the best place in my life. I was a single mother, just gotten out of a relationship that had rocked my reality, and struggling with the balance of my recommitment to the Lord and the life I was used to living. To say the least, I wasnt looking for a life long commitment when I spent my first weekend with Josh down in Dallas. I think back on that weekend frequently. Josh had also just gotten out of a serious relationship and was on the last stages of his healing process. To say it was fate is an understatement. We fell asleep the first night holding hands. I swear I felt like we were 15...but it was absolutely amazing. He didn't even try to make a move, which was very much refreshing to me. The next morning he had to leave early for a baseball game. He got his things together quietly as I pretended to be asleep. He walked over, leaned down and kissed me on the cheek, and left. Perfection. THAT...was the beginning of our relationship.

 Ok...now to the point of this story that I hold so dear to my heart. At church this morning, my pastor said something that rang by bell. He said "God was for me so much in my yesterday's that I can trust him in my tomorrows" I look back on that April weekend of 2009 and stand in awe of God's timing. I was not in a good place and at times I felt that God wasn't working FOR me...but what I realize now is that God was working IN me. God had me go through everything I did to lead me to that weekend. He worked in me the entire time...making me the person i needed to be for the man that would one day be my husband. He took two people who were healing, placed them together, and connected our hearts forever, through HIM. He was there for me in my yesterdays. In no way, shape, or form will I say that my life if perfect. Josh and I have had and will have our fair share of struggles but we have CHOSEN to trust in the Lord because in all reality... We wouldn't even be WE with Him in the first place.

We trust Him with our tomorrows. No matter what happens In our future...we choose God. Because if God is for us, who can ever be against us?

{The first weekend we ever spent together}

Until next time...

Kay