Against The Grain

"Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. How precious to me your thoughts, O God! How vast in the sum of them!" Psalm 139:16-17

My heart has been heavy and my mind has been full. So here I am, writing to you.

Josh, Lilly and I have had the privilege of experiencing worship and praise at a different church home for the past two weeks. I have been wanting to look for a new place of worship for quit some time but have always found an excuse to stay where we were. It took the beautiful dedication ceremony of our dear friends, Josh and Alyssa's, sweet baby girl Eden to lead us to Word of Victory. For lack of better words, we have loved it. I have felt more of a connection with the music alone there than I have anywhere I have been since I have been back in Texas. Josh and I both really enjoy Pastor Mike's speaking style and I am confident if we continue to attend we will build lasting relationships with this tight knit congregation.

This past Sunday, Pastor Mike's sermon spoke to the insecure person who lives inside of me. He explained that God made each and every one of us different and unique but all for one reason and one reason alone. To glorify Him. He gave each of us gifts to use to glorify His name. God doesn't want us to spend our time wanting the gifts that other people possess but to exemplify our own. This really struck a nerve with me. I began thinking about all of the things that make me unique. They may not necessarily be gifts, but they are characteristics that make me who I am....and I am proud of who I am. If for no other reason but for me to see them written down, I am going to tell you some of the things that are unique to..well...me.

• I can never eat the last bite of my food
• I am terribly claustrophobic but LOVE the freeing feeling of roller coasters and heights
• I LOATHE the sound of people eating
• I wear different colored socks
• I cannot sleep without my body pillow
• I'm terrified of mice...and spiders...but mostly mice
• I'm messy but try oh so hard to not be
• I grew up wanting to be the next Katie Couric but I believe that taking care of sick babies is my calling

Ok, so 7 out of those 8 things aren't gifts but they are things that make me unique. God blessed me with all of the quarks...good and bad. The last one though, I do consider a gift. God has given me the gift to help children. I absolutely LOVE my job. If I can make a different in ONE child's life, the purpose I believe God has created me has been fulfilled. I will continue to do my best to glorify God through my work and my everyday life.

Do not deny who you are and do not wish to be someone else. Do not go against the grain that God created for you. He has a plan for all of us. A plan that he created before we were ever placed on this earth. Trust in Him and you WILL prosper.

Kayleigh

On a side note...

I wanted to share with you a text message that my brother sent  me earlier after our phone call got disconnected. He had called to check up on me and make sure everything was ok. Of course with me being the emotional roller coaster that I am I cried through the whole conversation, making it terribly hard for him I can imagine. Here is the message:

"I love you soooo much and am sooo excited for your wedding and your life with Josh. I am here to help you in any way you need. Let me know if I can help with anything and please know that I am so proud of you and am so happy you are marrying the man you love...i believe in yalls love and I believe in you and like you said, trust in the Lord...know your brother is here too."

I told Josh that I couldn't ask for a better brother and his response was, "...and if you did, I don't think youda gotten one."

I truly believe that God placed my brother on this earth to say the right thing at the right time. Ok, maybe he has a greater purpose...but I like to think that he was made just to be my amazing big brother. He is one of the best men I know. Ok that is all...I just wanted to share with you the love in my family.

Yall have a blessed week