Attitude

I'm sitting in the waiting room at the dr's office for my sick baby surrounded by the germs of sickly people on my day off. BOOOO. It's ok though, because today is SERIOUSLY one of the most exciting days of my life. In just a few liiiitle hours, I will be slipping on beautiful wedding gowns that I may potentinally wear on the day I get to marry my best friend in the whole world. Along with my cousin Amber, who is one of my Maids of Honor, my Aunt Terri and my mom I get to play the ultimate dress up! Yipeeee for me!

So in the last month that I have been engaged, I have experienced what I always hoped I wouldn't. I have been treated, by some, like this is my second wedding, so it shouldn't be as big of deal. At first it really bothered me. They made me feel almost guilty for being as excited as I am. I felt that because I have made mistakes in my life that I dont deserve to have the happiness that other woman get to experience during their engagment. Well ya know what? SCREW THAT. This may be my second wedding, but unlike my first wedding that I had out of obligation, I am so incredibly inlove with this man and truly cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him. And since when did the wedding become just about the bride? It may be my second wedding but it is Josh's first and he deserves the best. So I'm moving forward with a new attitude. I WILL be excited about everything no matter what everybody thinks. I WILL plan the wedding of my dreams on a very limited budget. And I WILL marry the man of my dreams in front of my closest friends and family :)

MOVING ON...

Today I will be dress shopping with 3 of my favorite woman in the world. The 4 of us have many fun memories of our ventures together. Sadly, our ventures dont happen near as often but that's what having babies will do! There really arent any other people in this world that I would want to share today with. AND THEN TOMORROW! Tanna is making a quick 3 hour trip south to spend the day thrift store hopping with me. Yes you read that correctly, thrift store hopping. I will indeed be using MANY items from thrift stores for the decore of my wedding. Im sooooo super pumped! This wedding will be a DIY wedding at it's best. Full of personality and feeling, it will be an experience that I hope my guests will never forget. I am thankful to have such a beautiful best friend and maid of honor to help make all of my ideas come to life. I am blessed to have the best 2 maids of honor a girl could ask for!

So I will spend the next 11 months planning the day that starts my life as the wife of the man God put on this earth for me. I have never been more excited about anything in my whole life. Thank you Josh for making me so happy and for never making me feel like I deserve nothing less than the world. Thank you Amber and Tanna for being my best friends and supporting me through everything I have been through. Things that led me to where I am today with you two by my side. I love you both dearly.

So here's to Novemeber 11, 2011. THE DAY OUR DREAMS COME TRUE! :)